Friday, July 31, 2009

Need to Post

I feel like I need to post. It's been over a week. But I'm in a pretty bad mood today about our adoption. I really want to have a temper tantrum. I want to cry and stomp my feet. I want what I want and I want it now!

There. Shew. I hate feeling like a brat.

Now, let me resume being a responsible, faith-filled adult. When we went through infertility, I feel like I 'failed' in the way that I handled things. I operated in a constant attitude with God like the paragraph above. I was in my twenties. Ten years have passed since then. I'd like to think I learned something about God's faithfulness. His Grace. His Mercy. So, at the risk of giving platitudes - I'm going to post things I know to be true. It's all I've got today.
TRUTHS
* God is in control.
* God knows everything.
* God's timing is always best.
* I never want anything that hasn't been sifted through the hands of God first.
* God put us on this path of adoption.
* God loves me and my family.
* God is a good God.
* God sees things in an eternal perspective.

So...I know God is not in a hurry for His best. We will continue to wait. We covet your prayers. To all my sisters who are in the same 'waiting' room, I keep you in my prayers, too!
Love to all - a

4 comments:

  1. Hi sweet Amy: I am lifting you up in prayer and so thankful that we have such a wonderful group of prayer warriors through this journey. We had the privilege of seeing a miracle this past week (Deborah's). What a blessing! Your miracle is happening too...it has been in the works since eternity beginning...and will be revealed to you soon. Hang in there, it will be worth it. Blessings to you today! Tami

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  2. Oh, how I know that stomp your feet and throw a tantrum feeling!! And honestly...Fridays are always the worst when you're in the midst of an adoption process. If you don't hear anything on a Friday, you know you have all weekend to wait with no more news.

    Praying for good news!
    Chanda

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  3. Speak it! The truth that is!

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  4. Amy, you will laugh when this is all settled and done. You will laugh at what a different mother you are this time around. Some of the things you got so hung up on with the boys will seem so unimportant now. Other things you let pass, you won't dare forget.

    I realize now that God gave us Ben so much later than Josh and Laura to teach me a lot about Him. I am so much more aware of the goodness of God and so much less dependent on myself. (I think I also do not compete with any other moms like I used to...)Rest in the wait...easier said than done. You worded your goals so well. I so want to live a life that reflects the saving grace He's been gracious enough to give me. Sweet one, you are beautiful and the refiners fire has revealed a bit of glory here on earth. Hangin in there in prayer for you and your family.

    Jennifer Ciarletta

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